Making the final arrangements

Making those final arrangements were a blur.. going to a funeral home to make arrangements for your child is horrible.. picking out their forever clothes. Their forever bed (casket).. 

we picked out a casket cos there was no way was I having my son cremated.. 

we decided to do a viewing for immediate family (invite only and for anyone over the age of 18yrs old) a week before his funeral.. 

I’m glad we had help from other sources for paying for the funeral 

my sister in law had setup a gofundme for Isiah’s send off.. (which is what I called it back then to help myself from crumbling) 

Dominos in port Augusta had done a fundraiser for every pizza ordered they’d donate $1 to Isiah’s gofundme they did this one night.. I can’t remember the young lady who came up with the idea but I’m forever grateful..

The company I work for happyhaven oshc donated $1000.. which I’m forever grateful for their contribution and support throughout my darkest of days

Isiah’s dad wanted a church funeral even though none of us were religious.. 

we had a meeting with the reverend from the church, we picked out the scriptures we wanted read which was John 13 because when I did go through Isiah’s room I found a piece of paper with a cross drawn on it and John 13 written in the cross.. that scripture read 

It was before the Passover feast. Jesus knew that time had come for him to leave this world and go to the father having loved his own who were in this world he showed them the full extent of his love.. it was weird to find this considering the day before Isiah’s tragedy we had a spontaneous bbq with some family.. so this felt like it had some meaning.. 

We wrote out Isiah’s life story, we had some family contribute to this story so we had a few different heartfelt memories.. there were so many great memories we didn’t share in Isiah’s life story because it had to be kept short.. 

how do you try to write a few minutes of someone’s life story when there were so many great memories.. 

 trying to write anything about your sons life moments while you’ve got tears in eyes and an aching heart is hard.. even now as I’m working all this I feel my head getting light and my heart getting heavy..